“A person can have faith and still question. A heart can be broken and still love. A soul can be tired and still hope. A mind can be dark and still dream.”

“All that we see or seem is but a dream within a dream.”

This is a personal project I call: IN MY WILDEST DREAMS.

It is inspired by the dream state I am left in after two miscarriages. 

We’ve all experienced it, that bizarre state between almost awake and almost asleep. When your mind is not fully itself and is open to everything. Crazy creations, clouds, monsters, rolling green hills with wildflowers, kaleidoscopes of colours. Our dreams offer endless possibilities. Only when the mind is made aware that it has been dreaming does the dream cease to feel real.

Spotting. Just the beginning of a horrible, horrible bloody nightmare.

Seeing my empty uterus on the sonogram was a crushing visual that I will never forget for my entire life.

The maternity ward with all the successful mommies and babies where I had my D&C.

Pregnancy announcements.

Sympathy cards from Pinterest.

Hidden baby purchases buried deep in the corner of a cupboard.

Endless tests.

All small reminders of what we lost.

‘Yet, I still dare to hope’
Lamentations 3:21

“The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen, nor touched, but are felt in the heart.”